got me thinking, the music should come first. Lately, it hasn't. I've kinda fallen off the wagon and it's just an excuse to go get f-ed up for me. Don't know why I'm admitting this, but I guess it burns on your soul when you know what you're doing has nothing to do with why you got involved with the music in the first place. I attend shows regularly, haven't been able to travel like I want to but I've still seen some damn good shows. It's easy for me to get caught up in the scene cause you know I sometimes feel like a kid in a candystore and this is my playground, but personally, I need to slow down or I'll end up in the same mess I was years ago and it wasn't good for anyone involved.
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I hope you figure out, for your own sake that the music is what's most important. I like to have a few drinks, a little smoke, but nothing that interferes with the music... so I hope you can put aside the candy store aspect of the scene... good luck.
I think as I'm getting older I like to prove I can still party with the best of em, when in reality it could and will destroy me.
Got too much lose now. I got a family, decent job, house, I can name all kinds of reasons I shouldn't slip back into the scene where I once was. Not sure why it's any different now. I think it has alot to do with losing a close friend of mine a few years back and every now and then the demons like to grab hold of me and shake me for a minute or two.